I am down,5 pounds in 8 days!! WHOOHOO!!

Yeah yeah i know more then 2 lbs a week,is not healthy but I am doing this all by strenuous and frequent excercise,and seriously eating nothing, but healthy fruits veggies and snacking on many small meals(fruits and veggies) and no full meals..

SO there ya have it thank you to all of you I could not do this without you!

I am installing a counter on the left to mark my progress and of course will be here too ;-)

Nat

I cannot thank two individuals enough..

It is simply not possible..

2 people and they know who they are,have been riding my back side and emailing(and calling) to see how I am doing on this diet.

Not letting up,not letting me GIVE up and listening to me whine about how hard it is..

I past a mark where previous day i had stopped,on my bike route..

It was all up hill in the lowest(highest?) hardest gear on my bike..The previous day i couldn't do it,I had to stop and sit before continuing.

yesterday I past it today i will try to go all the way up the hill..

I also did a hundred sit ups, instead of the previous 70,because it "hurt" all in an effert to make my support systems proud and push myself..

I am doing very well(diet and excercise) and have lsot 2 lbs!(this is while on the time of month where weight is usually gained he,he!)

I cannot thank these two enough because before now no one cared and held me accountable and i gave up..

I am determined but most of all these two, are determined to see me do it..

I love you both and thank you does not say enough,

This road is long and hard,and sometimes it is unbearable..But with you two picking me up when I fall,I KNOW I can do it this time!

These two deserve to be publically known so here's to  Raven and Jason..

May you get the credit and appreciation and thanks you deserve from me and the rest of CS..
You 2 are fantastic and the reason I am still doing this!

Thank you!

nat

Ok so after trying(and failing) many many diets...I have decided that since motivation (and accountability) are strengths with me(if i have someone counting on or holding me to my word i will do it)

I decided to make a bet with my daughters(my oldest 2)

I have asked friends and family before to hold me accountable to my excercising and dieting but no one ever does..SO I have a new plan.

I bet my girls I would lose 20 lbs by the 30 of this month...OR I would have to give them $40..(20 each)

They agreed(duh lol!) and we are ON..I have jogged already this morning and walked with 2 heavy grocery bags,for 3 miles,and am drinking water(i detest water) and eating cottage cheese and we are ON..

Anyone wanna encourage me? Please do so! i NEED it! LOL!

Nat

I need this today,I am sorta bummed today..

Ok so here goes.

A while back here on CovenSpace there was a post going around that urged us to write ten things we like about our bodies.  Several months later, I still haven't came up with 10 things I love about just my body, but I can come up with ten things I like about me.  So here goes...

1. I like my hair,it is black and goes well with my skin tone(it is thick and wavy too).

2. I like my eyes,they are emerald green and sparkle(or flash) when I'm angry(or aroused lol!).

3. I like my nails,they are long(ish) and strong and look cute with polish ;-)

4. I really like my skin tone I tan easily,and look tanned naturally. 

5. I like my hands.  They are strong and soft. 

6. I like that I will chat up ANYONE,elderly and disabled and the folks most people stare at,I do not "see" as different i love everyone and see everyone as a converasation waiting to be stated lol!.

7. I like my passions,I am passionate about love,life and my family...

8. I like that I am creative and can see "potential "in everything!.

9. I like my strength.. I can handle more then I thought i could.

10. I adore my kids and like that i embrace domestic"roles" instead of bowing to the "women's movement" encouraging me to want a career instead of being a stay at home mom.

Now I challenge you all to come up with ten things you like about you.  It can all be physical, emotional, or a combination of both.  Love starts within, so lets start spreading the love

Hey all..

Why haven't i been here for a while? LOL where do i start?

Seriously though same old same old,I am feeling way over whelmed and my stress is taking physical tolls..I am eventually going to see a dr as this is getting crazy, going to try other options 1st then if need be will do dr route.

I am short of breath all day all night,exhausted and severe pains in back chest ribs and occasionally abdomen,dizzy spells nausea etc....I do NOT have depression thank the lords,so no need for meds for that..I am on ginsing and multivitamins,but need to rule out low iron and or low blood sugar etc.

Anyways moving on..I am overwhelmed and over my head..Had HUGE blow out with my son this morning..He is 12 and REALLY a botton pusher calls me names and insults me and so on..As well as breaking things he broke the broom by repeadidly banging it on the chair and it broke(the handle)

He was also kicking in the wall and punching the wall and throwing things around the room,screaching etc..

He is my ex's child(tho not biologically)and acts as he saw his father do..

Anyways i am not one for whining so will not do it now..

I am just tired,confused overwhelmed and STRESSED..I need a break so bad and my daughter's sweet 16 is this weekend..I will be taking her and my other daughter(gaby) to the spa for girl day and then to lunch and movie and dinner at Boston Pizza.

I am really hoping to relax on Sat(when I am doing all this) and ya know "zone" a little bit..

Anyways as i said I am not one to whine or complain..

But life is seriously confusing to me right now..Somethings are not,couldn't be more clear and others are confusing..

For example the Secret well and good and yeah i have read parts and am a fan BUT,I cannot embrace it totally..For example this morning in local news a man holding his baby daughter(1 yr old) were attcked by bear mace and hammers.

During a hotel robbery(they were innocent bystanders)The baby Goddess bless her, is ok and so is daddy both in hosp but will survive..

BUT according to the secret the sweet baby asked for this on herself and he did too..i DO not agree and can't..She got the FULL potent mace in her face and mouth.

I am trying daily as a single momma to do the best i can and struggling with bills and temper tantrums and physical ailments and i am falling short..I am doing all I can and it still seems to be not enough..

Anyways I am here I am ok,just REALLY exhausted and stressed and ready to throw in the towel.

Blessed be my friends and love and light,

Nat